o9.4.0z

heh .. skoo startin tumarroes .. i dunn wanna go .. sighs .. i miss jhs sho much .. i wish i cud juss be wid duh peepo dere forever .. sighs .. it gonnah b so hard meetin new peepoz nd tryin not tah forget the old best friends .. i dunn wannah lose ne of 'emz .. sighs .. dernos wahh tahh sayz .. nd i can't sleep either .. >.<

o8.31.0z

heh .. its wahh .. 3:43 in duhh mornins .. i can't sleep .. whys life so gayy? .. why do people go away so fast .. and it's got to be so unexpectedly too .. can't life just be less deadly?.. ionos .. dinkin bout mahh own life .. it juss sux so much .. sighhs .. i juss got like the biggest illest panda eyes .. >.< .. i don't wanna live no moreeeeeeeeeee .. arGhs .. life is such a fuckin bitch!!!!!! .. i cry for mostli all mahh life .. and its got tahh be everynite toos .. life is so fucking gayy!! .. err! .. thinkin bout so mannyy thinggs .. it juss gets meeh more upset by duhh minute .. tears come from mahh heart nd out mahh eyes nd juss rolls down my cheeks everydayy .. EVERYDAY! .. why!? .. it's like .. i cud never be happy .. maybe sum of yu get meeh happy ... buh sighhs .. it juss not fair for duhh fact that mahh heart been hurtins for too long of a time .. not for juss ONE yr.. buh for .. almost EIGHT fuckin yrs. .. my heart just breaks into more and more pieces everydayy knowin datt someone i love isn't around anymore .. i miss her so muchh .. and i know shes juss been watchin over meeh these past yrs.. buh i juss wish i cud see her again .. i juss wish she was here tellin meeh dat everithinnz qonnah be alrights .. it's juss not right .. i dunn care if ppl HAVE to do go awayy at sum point or another .. buh .. why it gottah be so soon? .. whyy?!?!??!!??! .. have i done sumthin wrong? .. i'm sorriie god .. goshh .. life is just such a bitch to meeh .. it's juss not fair .. nd imma guessin yu definitely knoe dat i knoe how yu feel maggs nd lauraa .. i'm juss cryin rahh nows dinkin wtf i did wrong in life .. its juss so stupid how life can be such a bitch .. yeahh .. ok .. live life to it's fullest.. shure .. w.e. .. buhh wuhtz duhh point if yu're not qonnah be happy? .. look intu duhh future of mahh life? .. wahh future .. i hardlii even got hope for myself ne more .. dunn dink too much? .. how can i not .. knowin so much stupid fucked up shiet is qoin on .. nd thats qonnah happen .. how?!!!!!!!! .. yu tell meeh!?!? .. haven't i sed it awl .. wahh else can i do?! .. lifes juss so stupid how it is .. and erR! .. it's like .. i cud be satisfied in life .. buhh denn dinggs juss alwayys come up intahh mahh mind nd it's so stupid ... and these flashes of duhh past alwayys come up to my mind time tahh time .. goddddddddd .. stop foolin around wid meeh! .. i can't live like this .. i needuhh find fuckin happiness dat will stayy .. not to go away .. buh to stayy .. i try so hard not tu dink of duhh gayy fucked up shiet .. buh it dunn work .. and peepo are juss gettin more and more violent now .. wtf does hurtin each othahh physically do?! .. it doesn't solve shit does it?! .. this world is just so hatefull .. so stupid .. fuckin life suckz such a big dickk .. i juss dunn wannah live life with so muchh pain no more .. i dunn wannah live.... i juss can't stand livin .. not that i'm bein selfish .. buh i juss cant.......

o8.30.0z

::sighs:: .. sho tireds .. went tahh ct wif maboz .. got tahh talk tahh her a lots .. then went tahh mp tahh meet ups wid amyy nd maggs .. then went tahh 18ave. fair wif amyy . maggs . nd jonnyy .. sho tired .. walked back nd forth llike friggin 3 times .. sho tirins .. then we hadd tahh walk homes .. goshh .. mahh feet feels like it qot beet up rofls .. ahh wells .. lols .. amyy won herself a dolliie .. nd jonnyy won a dolliie .. i gott duhh dolliie .. lols .. we went tahh miCkey dEez before we went home .. now dat imma home .. i feel sho dead .. >.< .. goshh .. now imma worryinz bout like laura .. where duhh hell ish she .. arGhz .. >.< .. i'm too exhausted tahh write ne mores .. leave (e)piLLs .. peace .. madd love .. muahhz

o8.28.0z

blehhhhhhhhhhhhhs .. sho tireds .. did nadas tahdaiis .. charles came ovahhz .. den we waited fOa laura tahh come overrs .. den we went tahh mp .. shaw jenn deas .. kekes .. missh her sho muchiies .. hehes .. den we went tahh shoot shum pool .. erRfiiEs .. charles when meeh 3 times in a row .. nd i was actuallyy gonnah have a chance to win the last game .. buh nooooooo .. he had tahh beat meeh .. so i didn't win at awls .. kekes .. i shaw tony dea toos .. friggin niggah didn't eben shayy hi tahh meehs .. hmphs .. lols .. then jenn nd betty went backk tah mp .. then we dropped charles off at duhh train station .. nd then meeh nd laura went tahh her house.. nd now meeh be homiies .. hehes ... (e)piLLz pweash .. hehes .. boo baiiz .. madD wufFiiEs